The Aftermath After That

"i don’t know who’s to sign the birth certificate

this painful idea has creeped back into my mind

i really would like for it to go away, but it’s the aftermath

despite your intent, i couldn’t help but cry

everyday was a test of my strength & i like to think i passed

now i’m on the other side of all my doubts

fears seems to know me on a first name basis

a relative i’d love to make distant

but i’m scared

scared that time till present itself & you’ll disappoint me

scared that this is the round that’ll take me to my grave and my heart into a dark hole

scared that you’re never going to value me enough to not hurt me

but i could be wrong"